The life that I live as a creative entrepreneur is not an easy life. I have fought so many fights to get where I am, but recently I have not been the victor of any of those fights. So, to be writing this statement feels like I’ve lost another fight and life is once again showing me how much of a failure that I am.
To once again be at the crossroad and have to decide to either continue with an event as planned, postpone the event, or cancel the event, is undoubtedly heartbreaking. But here I am, once again, just days before the event was scheduled, and I have to make looming decision of what to do—cancel or postpone.
When I first started planning A Night at The Press, I thought this would be the win that I’ve been longing for—I thought I would finally see people support my work like never before; however, with only a few days left before the scheduled start, that has not been the case. Of course, I do hold most of the responsibility in this not working out because I wasn’t able to do as much promo as I had intended to do.
Of course, I thought about doing a last-minute sprint to do as much promo as possible, but—honestly—with the way my life has been recently, doing that might have emotionally drained me. Unfortunately, I do not have a good record for garnering support for my work, so to put all my energy in at the last minute to only get the same result—little to no attendees—would only have a huge negative impact on my mental health right now.
Honestly, I feel like no one sees nor understands me and the work that I do. I feel like I’m in the wrong place, which is only exacerbated since I live in a city alone with no family. And I know that the work that I do is deep soul work and sometimes feels uncomfortable, but I just need to find individuals who want to be intentional about who they’re becoming. Which is what The BW Printing Press is all about… it’s what the House of Braylon is all about.
But this is where the cognitive dissonance comes in because I know that there are people who do support my work—they just tend to be quiet supporters. And I would like to say to those people—the people who may have read or listened to my work but may have not left a comment, the people who have been quietly holding a space for my work in your heart—I say thank you. But, right now, I’m—honestly—in a place mentally where I need more people to be vocal about how they support my work because when I look at the numbers, I’m told that my work doesn’t matter. So, what I’m asking of those people who do support me is that you please be a little more vocal about your support… share, comment, like, forward emails to friends. I get that I sell a lot of products, but you don’t have to be a financial supporter (although that’s the preferred method) of the work of the House of Braylon… by sharing, liking, and commenting on social media posts alone, you’re guiding the algorithm to more people who will gladly enter the House.
Although life has once again won another fight, this isn’t a permanent cancellation… this event (A Night at The Press) will be back when people are ready to support the cause. However, in the meantime, I’m asking for your prayers—to whichever higher power you believe in—because right now it’s hard for me to do it myself.
But why write such a honest and vulnerable letter and post it online?
Because if I’m going to expect more people to support the deep soul work that I do, then I’ve got to be about it—I can’t claim that I’m doing deep soul work and not show it.
Now, I know that I’ve already talked about some ways that you can support the House of Braylon, but here’s a more complete list.
- Like, comment, and share Instagram and Facebook posts from me, Morningstar Interiors, and Enneagram Restored Podcast.
- Watch a couple episodes of Enneagram Restored Podcast on YouTube: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PL9Mqv0sLJCyEnkAteeoYpB5uwrkI9btnL&si=bFZio3WfDjll5aO0
- Join the waitlist for the House of Braylon Discord Server: https://braylonwilliams.me/discord-waitlist
- Donate to my Out of The Darkness Suicide Prevention fundraiser: https://afspwalks.donordrive.com/participant/Braylon
- Purchase tickets to Color Workshop Presented by Morningstar Interiors: https://braylonwilliams.me/color-workshop
- Help sustain the work of the House of Braylon by leaving a tip: https://skilled-author-1775.kit.com/products/braylon-williams
With Love,
Braylon W.
(Esse Quam Videri — “To be, rather to seem”)